bulletin on speed

I often feel trapped in an inexpressible, suffocating inner room with soft padded walls and sterile lighting and inner demons, not outer demons, and you can call it a "conundrum". So every time you think of the word "conundrum", you can think of the little person trapped inside you who doesn't know how to talk to people about feelings or who does not under any circumstances want to. I know I'm more or less redefining conundrum, but who cares and maybe when you think of "conundrum" now you will laugh and give it persona. but you'll have to be pretty imaginative. Anyway, my stroke of genius is more or less pure impulse to spill from my brain as fast my fingers move, words that will make sentences AND SO release pent up, internalized energy. So you know, I'm champion of the free internalizing world. ask any thoughtful person. If I don't verbally express myself when I feel I want to, I either make some goofy noises or sing rather loudly in my room or grow silently irritable with my surrounding, like today at work when I wanted to explode the splenetic nurse with the sweet face and mouse voice that belyingly spews profanity under her breath. I wanted to explode her head with my laser eyes from a comfortable distance way down the hospital hall. Or (if I don't express myself verbally) I impetuously bulletin the free myspace world. I am not a crack head. ...I'm wondering if anyone who reads anything I write thinks I'm a very outgoing, talkative, kind, loving person? Don't be stupid. I'm a closet extrovert who gets off writing silly things that entertain me, whenever I feel like it. I feel like it write now. NOW. Alright, you've had enough. I have to go hang on a hang board so I can get wickedly strong. Then I have to shower because I'm not clean. Then I have to do other things and there is never enough time.

This is the most important part of this blog:

Ecclesiastes 12:1 Remember your Creator in the days of your youth, before the days of trouble come and the years approach when you will say, I find no pleasure in them.