adventing

There is such a thing as timed chess. i'm not very good at it. i think it is because i think slowly and deeply...similar to the ocean. please pretend that analogy makes perfect sense. i don't know why i can't be a clever poet or chairman of the Federal Reserve. I've written poems. but...not recently. I'm very good at self-editing. "but...not recently" is not even remotely a complete sentence or thought. It's a banal fragment and has nothing to do with the Federal Reserve. Regardless, I will write to think, and it is probable no one will read it because i see few do, but that is not the point. The point is that I might not ever be a great debater, though I am so enthralled with them. BECAUSE i get it. I think I bobble a bit when lots of eyes are on me...therefore I write, and what is written...can be read...afteritiswritten. The point is that I follow. I do get economics. I sense poetry, often and poorly. I know what words do.... Why? It's one thing to be smart. It's another thing to know how to apply it. That's a new maxim of mine. I'm somewhere in between. Between smart enough to follow and benefiting the world.

Yes, that is a shifting paradigm.

I don't know when arrival is? I don't think it looks the way i thought. It may have nothing to do with notoriety or money. That's something i discerned. The smartest ones are the ones helping the most because. Their motives are the smartest. I think i'm defining words differently then is normal, for example "smartness". Maybe I'm spelling "wisdom" or "godliness". I have this inkling that's where I'm going. I know everyone will benefit. hmmmmmmmmm. I need a lot of help along the way.